Father: Best Guru in My Life

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This is my first blog post on the day when I lost my Guru, my father, exactly 4 years ago. I am not a writer by nature, or by profession but I thought I should share my thoughts about my father which I saw as a Guru for how someone can live a life.

I am sharing one instance which shows how he was guiding and building his children and giving them samskars.  Lots of people now can say after the recent events occurred in our life, that these kids are not samskarit. Or my father failed in giving good teachings as a human being. 

Everyone has someone as a GURU in their life and they look that person as a mentor or as a pure soul which can lead them towards enlightenment. My father somehow tried to find one and he found I would say 50% in one monk but even that did not encouraged my father to devote his life to something that the monk was doing.  

I would like to quote Swami Vivekanand here. He who can understand and speak to you of your past and future can be recognized as your guru. (Reference) I never saw my father was talking with the monk who he was referring to GURU about past, future and other things. 

I saw GURU in my father's life the way he taught the difference between finding happiness within helping others versus finding happiness in just doing pooja's and deity things. After a year when I got my job, he was talking about how I can help people. Then he told me stories about how he managed to get me educated and along with my education he did manage to get my two sisters marriage and younger brother's education. Even though he was this much of pressure. He said whenever and wherever you can help people that chance you should never leave. 

By listening to these thoughts I again remembered the teaching of Swami Vivekanand. he said,

Then and then alone you are a Hindu when distress of anyone bearing that name comes to your heart and makes you feel as if your own son were in distress. (Reference)

I also tried to find these kinds of teachings in the same monk whom my father was tried to follow but never got the sense of that. I tried to find these things in my close relative but never got that sense or level of knowledge in them. 

There is a big blank space in my life and I am still trying to fill it. I am still stuck in the year 2015. That is holding me a lot. Father give me the strength to get out of it.

Prasad.